Inside of Me for Happines, Please.

Yesterday, I made great effort to strive and only keep myself happy. Keeping others happy can be so exhausting. Although it can be a constant struggle of keeping yourself happy and your loved ones happy, at the end of the day, its important to keep yourself happy. Perhaps its a selfish thing of mine, this wanting to fulfill myself with only my desires, but when there is an existence of those in your life that only want you to stay happy in their idea of happiness, it is then that you realize to follow your own happiness. Riches and grandeur do not drive me. The idea of constant ownership of grand tangible things does drive me. No, it is the idea of a spirit free to explore the wonders of this world, not knowing how or when you will get there. Excited about the travel and views that will be encountered along the way. Perhaps I can be viewed of as being unrealstic of the nature of our world. Perhaps a dreamer. But oh the better to travel to my places of destination in this life. Yes, I realize all in this world. Unfairness and all. But, continue to call me a dreamer. Because dreams are what get me from one base to the next!

Staying Home

So, staying home the past few months has been more exciting than I would have thought it to be. I am actually going to miss this when I finally find a job. I didn't think that staying home could allow you to truly help you "find yourself". I have done many things while being home that I would not have been able to do had I been working all summer. Although things were tight, I got creative and put my thinking cap on. Mary and made new desserts. We went on trail walk on my parents land. Worked out together down in the basement. Made home made crafts. Rented movies from the public library. Played games online. Camped out in my closet (its big enough). Had sleepovers in each others rooms. Cleaned out unwanted junk from each of our rooms and closets. Learned the art of playing Frisbee as well as learned how to loose a match. Got wet outside. Oh how we did many many other things! Most importantly, we spent time together and learned about ourselves as well as about each other. : )